You have come along way, you should be very proud of yourself. Remember God's promises to you in Jeremiah 29:11? Hold on to that hope that His plans for you are good, and continue to just rest in His presence, seeking His will for your life. I would ask one thing of you though, be easy on yourself, God knows what He is doing, He has you right where you need to be, do not rush the process. If anything, ride the waves, and just enjoy your journey to the top. I know some days can be challenging, but guess what? you have got what it takes, you are a lion. You are the daughter of a king. Hope to check with you soon dearest self. until then, keep being your fabulous self.