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“Mama, I see you chewing gum, can I have some? And my response, “There’s no more gum hun, I took the last one” She then picks up the empty pack to make sure I was telling the truth. Who does that? At that moment, being the sensitive human that I am, I lashed out and made her feel really bad for not believing in me enough to just take my word for it. Hey before you crucify me for taking it so personal, this is not the first time such conversation has taken place between us, but for some reason, on this day, I took this really personal. It was so hurtful to think that my own child that knows I would give her the world in a heartbeat didn’t even trust my words. In my sensitive moment, I heard in my spirit; “If you feel this way, imagine how I feel when you don’t believe my promises to you.” That thought caught me at my tracks, and I quickly apologized to my daughter for lashing out, and explained calmly to her how it makes me feel when she doubts my words. Now let’s apply the above s...

We see in Numbers 22 how God finally agrees for Balaam to go answer to the call of Balak, but on the condition that he will speak only what God puts on his heart, which was that he couldn't curse the children of the Israelite. Trust humans, Balaam, though in agreement with God, had his own intentions. He probably thought in his heart to get there and twist God's words around (just my 21st century thinking). We know that God is all knowing, He knows our thoughts even before we think them. Did Balaam really think he could outsmart God? how silly, right? Anyhow, God knowing his thoughts, embarked on what I would like to call a battle with Balaam, and being the typical human, he couldn't even see or sense what was happening; he was probably lost in his thought, drawing out a strategic way to twist God's word around (reminds us of how we are sometimes, right?). It took a talking donkey for Balaam to realize what was happening in the invisible realm, and right in front of him...

              As a little girl in church,  I remember practicing and reciting Malachi 3:8 "Will a man rob God? yet you rob me. "But you ask, 'How do we rob you?' In tithes and offerings." This verse has stuck with me ever since, that even asleep, you ask me to recite it I will be very quick to, without blinking. My tithing and giving offering, even when it was not convenient stemmed from my awareness of the above. From what I can remember, and what is still happening today, ministers do whatever it takes to make people give without taking into consideration their financial situation. All kinds of manipulation, you just name it, is being used in churches today. At some points, I felt that my financial hardship was tied to my not tithing or giving consistently or when asked. And when I did give, there was not much difference in my situation. As I started to mature and understand more about the word of God, I realized that We do not have to tithe, ...

To appear in the court of heaven.      I had a moment where I was battling within myself, with my own thoughts concerning a response I had given to a friend earlier in the day. It felt like I was being accused of something I didn't do, or that wasn't insinuated. When I couldn't focus on my music anymore, I turned it down to respond to the accusation in my thought/mind, I should say now. I responded by praying, and refusing what was being forced on me. After I prayed in tongues, and made some declarations, I felt at peace.  Later in the day, I picked up a book on my kindle to read, titled "Defeating your Adversary in the Court of Heaven." by the Praying Medic, only to realize that what I encountered earlier, was me being summoned to the court of accusation by the accuser, and my responding granted me justice in the form of the peace I felt. This made me wonder how many times I have ignored such calls, and let the devil get an upper hand in my situation, or how ...

 If you are like me, trying to stay healthy, and maintain a certain weight can be a hassle sometimes. A lot of things can make you forget your goal of staying healthy, or having that conscious mindset of staying healthy, that you find yourself eating to feel good or to suppress whatever emotions you may be feeling at any particular time. For me I eat more when I have to do school work, or when I feel really stress about my finances. See now, just when I thought I got a good grip on this issue of emotional eating, something new hit me, and I decided to read more on it. I will be more than happy to share with you more what I discovered as I let the Holy Spirit take me through a teaching. There is such thing as overeating to fulfill sexual urge. yes You read it right, exactly what I just said. And in the Bible(Proverbs 23:2) overeating is considered a form of gluttony, which is ungodly, and it's no different from drunkenness. If I can explain further; according to the information ga...

The Helper: Be ware of Subtle Prejudice :             Subtle prejudice is the worse kind that is very common in our everyday lives. We all have probably been guilty of it one way or ...

            Subtle prejudice is the worse kind that is very common in our everyday lives. We all have probably been guilty of it one way or another. we may have been partial and sometimes unfair, yet act like we really care about everyone/every race. This is not to point fingers at anyone in particular, however, it is to awaken the human race to an issue that has not only become prevalent on our football fields, where we are supposed to be teaching leaders of tomorrow,  to be fair, regardless of race and color, but has slowly walked its sneaky way into our churches. Why do we hold people back or ignore them when we feel they do not fit our standard, or the required standard of the crowd  on the field, or in the church? Allow me to pick on the church now, we ought to set the example that the world needs to follow, not the other way around. Oh no, don't think I exclude myself when I shine light on this issue, for I have prob...