Sosasmama

A Christian, a Muslim and a Buddhist,  all 3, women seated together in one room over coffee and cake in celebration of the Christian's birthday, how interesting. The topic of discussion went from work, beliefs and life in general. Being that we all come from different Countries, we talked about our Countries and the problems plaguing third world nations. The biggest take away for me was how we respectfully talked about our religious beliefs, and coming to an agreement that change for every man starts from within, regardless of your religious beliefs. And that a person who is completely transformed from the inside cannot hide the transformation, for it will reflect in his/her actions and how they relate to others. Had I gone into the conversation with these wonderful ladies, closed minded, like the old me used to, I would have been on the defensive and not have a productive conversation or get to know them more. You don't have to change your beliefs to accommodate people you m...

I remember 10yrs ago, as I was approaching 30, I had mixed feeling; fear of the unknown, and questions about my achievements and contribution to this wonderful world. I also had fears of physical changes in my body. Just name it, I had all these feelings. When I should have been praising and thanking God for how far I had come, I chose to focus on the exterior and how I had failed myself, family and the Society. Amidst all of the mixed feelings, I was thinking about how I was adjusting well to my new life of single motherhood. On May 26, a week from today to be precise, I will be turning 40, yes, you heard me, and I so do not look a day like 40... Thank God for my parents genes and my great sense of humor (my daughter says I’m like a little girl on the inside).   My attitude approaching the big 40 is so different from 10yrs ago when I turned 30. Not to worry, I will tell you why. You see, prior to turning 30, I was just a desperate young single lady, I didn’t know who I wa...

When my daughter turned 5, some years ago, she wanted a pet, and because of our busy lives, we decided a cat would be better for right now, even though she would have preferred a little puppy. On a cat hunt we went (not really). Thankfully on one faithful day at work, my discussion with a coworker led to my putting the word out there that I was in need of a cat for my daughter, and this coworker happen to have a neighbor who was giving out kittens that were running around in his farm. So on that weekend, my daughter & I accompanied by my niece & great niece, we set out on an adventure of a lifetime to go bring out baby home. The excitement was overwhelming, the uncertainty was apparent, along we went anyways. After a wonderful horse ride, we headed to the neighbor’s farm to go get our baby. My daughter wanted a female cat, and all the while we were focused on getting a black female cat, there was this gray and white cutie that had his eyes fixed on us, I guess you can say, he ...

Sometime ago, in the middle of the night, I was awoken from sleep by this question that was so resounding in my spirit; "...What drives you?" Not even stopping for a second to think it through, I quickly said "Lord you know... my love for Christ, for the things of God, drives me." In as much as that sounded  great, I bet the Holy Spirit wanted me to go deeper in my response, after all He knows, He bears witness with my Spirit and knows my actual thoughts and feelings, which is that I truly meant what I said, though my action says otherwise sometimes. You maybe  wondering,  ok "where is this going?" Stay with me now, we're going somewhere... As time went on this question continued to hit me, then I realized I was really supposed to go deeper with my response. Yes, as a Jesus fanatic, my love for the Father, which cannot in ANYWAY measure up to that which He has for me, drives me to want to seek His face more, be like Him in every way, and this I real...

“Mama, I see you chewing gum, can I have some? And my response, “There’s no more gum hun, I took the last one” She then picks up the empty pack to make sure I was telling the truth. Who does that? At that moment, being the sensitive human that I am, I lashed out and made her feel really bad for not believing in me enough to just take my word for it. Hey before you crucify me for taking it so personal, this is not the first time such conversation has taken place between us, but for some reason, on this day, I took this really personal. It was so hurtful to think that my own child that knows I would give her the world in a heartbeat didn’t even trust my words. In my sensitive moment, I heard in my spirit; “If you feel this way, imagine how I feel when you don’t believe my promises to you.” That thought caught me at my tracks, and I quickly apologized to my daughter for lashing out, and explained calmly to her how it makes me feel when she doubts my words. Now let’s apply the above s...

We see in Numbers 22 how God finally agrees for Balaam to go answer to the call of Balak, but on the condition that he will speak only what God puts on his heart, which was that he couldn't curse the children of the Israelite. Trust humans, Balaam, though in agreement with God, had his own intentions. He probably thought in his heart to get there and twist God's words around (just my 21st century thinking). We know that God is all knowing, He knows our thoughts even before we think them. Did Balaam really think he could outsmart God? how silly, right? Anyhow, God knowing his thoughts, embarked on what I would like to call a battle with Balaam, and being the typical human, he couldn't even see or sense what was happening; he was probably lost in his thought, drawing out a strategic way to twist God's word around (reminds us of how we are sometimes, right?). It took a talking donkey for Balaam to realize what was happening in the invisible realm, and right in front of him...

              As a little girl in church,  I remember practicing and reciting Malachi 3:8 "Will a man rob God? yet you rob me. "But you ask, 'How do we rob you?' In tithes and offerings." This verse has stuck with me ever since, that even asleep, you ask me to recite it I will be very quick to, without blinking. My tithing and giving offering, even when it was not convenient stemmed from my awareness of the above. From what I can remember, and what is still happening today, ministers do whatever it takes to make people give without taking into consideration their financial situation. All kinds of manipulation, you just name it, is being used in churches today. At some points, I felt that my financial hardship was tied to my not tithing or giving consistently or when asked. And when I did give, there was not much difference in my situation. As I started to mature and understand more about the word of God, I realized that We do not have to tithe, ...